Grief, what does it feel like?

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I will never forget the day when my dad was given an expiration date. We didn’t know how long we had, we were told 6 month to 5 years. At the very moment, I realize we were on a journey, which I call “the gift of time”. Every moment I had with my dad, was a gift. Time with spent with anyone you love is a gift but I think it becomes more apparent when someone is ill and given a prognosis. I spent as much time with my dad as I could.

I managed all my dads health care and would be at his side when he health would decline. We would make the 2 1/2 hour drive to go pick up him and drive him back to Denver. I wanted to ensure he received the best care and tended by the best doctors picked to care for my dad. He would go home and life would go back to normal. But as time went on you can tell he was declining and I knew in my heart time was running out and so did he.

I remember him grabbing my hand while were sitting one the couch about a month before he passed away and asking me to please take care of my mom when he is gone. He worried so much about my mom. I think my dad feared death because he feared leaving my mom alone. On his last medical trip to Denver, I think my dad knew he wouldn’t return home. I remember dad telling my husband, I don’t think I am going to make it back home this time; I am going to die here in Denver. He was right, he knew, because with a few days we were presented with the fact my dads worsening condition qualified him to began hospice. My dad’s 5 days in home hospice, he body was exhausted and he couldn’t fight anymore.

The beautiful thing about doing home hospice is being able to care for your loved one during those last moments of time. Dad went to my brother’s home for his last days here on earth. Home hospice allowed us to care for our dad during his final days, we had sleepless nights and the 24 hour case was exhausting but I would do again.

Personally, home hospice was a gift for me, to continue to care for my dad and tend to his needs. It gave me time to sit to in silence and hold his hand while everyone else was sleeping. As a nurse, caring for others is a gift but it’s a greater gift when it’s your own loved one. Dad finally was relieved of all his pain and left the earth on August 28th, 2017. I know my dad went to heaven and I hope he can hear me when I say, I miss you dad.

For the holidays, I know my siblings are all struggling with dad’s passing. I know for me, its a sudden emotion of anger or sadness. I have to take a moment to determine what is this feeling and what is triggering it, then I remember it’s called grief. Grief, hits you like a wave, it can come in big or small and sometimes it can just knock the breath out of you. From my understanding, you never get over grief but eventually learn to live without that person. I have no clue, this is new to me and all I can say is that it sucks!

I decided as a gift this year is to give something with dad. I recently seen these gorgeous memory lanterns on Pinterest and thought this would be a great gift. I started out with purchasing 12 inch lanterns, small doll house chairs, doll house size Christmas tree, Cricut permanent black vinyl, E6000 glue, tea lights, picture of my dad, and white felt to place on the bottom on the inside of the lantern. In Cricut Design Space, I typed the poem “Christmas in Heaven, What Do they Do? They all Come to Earth, to Spend it with You. So Save them a Place and one Empty Chair. You may not see them, but they will be there.” on the black vinyl. Inserted the picture into the back, glued the felt down, then chair and Christmas tree, placed the black vinyl lettering on the front, inserted the candle and voila, it was complete. If you go onto Pinterest and use the search words “memorial lantern DIY”, you can find many ideas regarding memorial lanterns and you can even find some great ideas not related to Christmas.

Mini vanilla Bundt cakes with lemon frosting

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I absolutely love sweets and wanted to try to make mini Bundt cakes. Outside of crafting, I also love to bake and cook. Now who doesn’t love Pinterest! Pinterest is my go to place for recipes and craft ideas.

I was craving something sweet but with a hint of sour, so I began to search for a lemon frosting for my mini Bundt cake idea. I think I found the most amazing and go to lemon frost recipe. I came across a recipe called The Best Lemon Buttercream Frosting from Two Sisters Crafting. This recipe has just the right amount of lemon. It’s not to lemony and I was able to frost my mini lemon Bundt cakes with the lemon frosting. It was perfect and everyone loved them!

I had purchased a set of 12 cup mini Bundt cake pans a few months back and I was armed with a lemon pound cake recipe. I absolutely love Grandbaby Cakes Lemon Pound Cake (Ultimate Lemon Cake Recipe), it’s one of the best lemon pound cakes I have ever made and I always receive compliments when I make this amazing cake for events. Be super careful when filling your pan, as the batter does rise quite a bit and will spill over in the mini pan. My first batch was a bit of a disaster, as the batter spilled over. My next batch I only filled about half way full or maybe even a little less.

Since I am by no means a master baker or cook, I often find lessons learned during my first time experiences. Outside of probably selecting a different recipe, although how can I when Grandbaby Cakes recipe is AMAZING!!!! I believe a 6 cup Bundtlette cake pan would be a better type of pan for mini Bundt cakes but the 12 cup mini Bundt cake pan worked out well.

Lemony Heaven

Can Coolers

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My husband was honored to be the best man for his brother’s upcoming wedding. We decided to host a co-ed party at our home to keep things low key and simple. I decided to make custom can coolers for the event. I felt the can coolers would be a great keepsake for our guests and the groom. Since hunting is a favorite past time for the men in our family, I decided to find camo can coolers and design something from the DS geared towards hunting. I found some great green and pink can coolers on Amazon. Using Siser Stretch HTV, I cut my design out and then proceeded to iron on the cuts on the koozies. Just a reminder, when cutting out iron-on with your Cricut, it’s always shiny side down and mirror image. This took me moment to understand as a new user. I absolutely loved how easy Sister Stretch HTV was to use.

A few things I would do differently and lessons learned from this project: go with a smaller image size. The green can coolers, I went too big. I figured this out after I ironed on 25. So I made the image smaller on pink ones. As you look at the picture below, you will see the difference. The larger image size you lose a bit of the lettering when you insert a can. Secondly, I should have gone with a different font. But overall, not horrible for my first project and everyone at the party loved the koozies. I realize I need to start providing step by step pictures of my projects which I believe will more helpful to Cricut newbies like myself. This whole blogging thing is new to me but please bear with me, I figure out the kinks.

My First Blog Post

The Hairstylist Cricut Project

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I absolutely love my hairstylist and I know she has a great sense of humor. Since the holidays are right around the corner and I wanted to take a gift to her at my last hair appointment. My life is crazy and getting a haircut every 8 weeks can be a struggle. My amazing husband surprised me with a Cricut Maker a couple of weeks ago and this was an opportunity to use my brand new crafting toy! Voila……this is my creation! Can I say, so far I absolutely love Cricut Design Space (DS). The DS offers many options to design a project. My next goal is to learn to workout outside of DS and determine how to create my own designs but in the meanwhile, I am absolutely loving DS. The DS allows you to share your designs on either Facebook or Pinterest, so I have added the cup to Pinterest. Click on the Pinterest hyperlink below and let me know if this allows you to obtain the file to design the cup. Since I designed the cup within DS and it’s not considered a finish product, from my understanding of the Angel Policy, I can’t publish as a SVG. I have received a lot of comments regarding the design and I wanted to figure out how to share. Please comment below and let me know.